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Losing the Future

It’s not so easy

2/25/2014


I'm not much of a planner. I never thought of the future very much. When I thought about the great loss that I would face because of dying I thought about the loss of things that I have in the present. I didn't think about the loss of things that I will never have.


My Guardian Angel (Karen) will soon be rewarded for all the help she was to me. She’ll have a new bathroom and the upgrade to the house. She will continue her exercise classes. And she will be adding Zumba and Jazzercise classes.  She will continue to upgrade her garden. I think she has begun to enjoy restaurants so she will be eating out more. In the spring she'll be playing tennis with someone I know so I can easily imagine her moving on with her life.


Editorial Note: Later on I spent more time imagining the future - and came to the final understanding that I needed to fully clear my psyche and die as I wanted to.


It was complicated and not so easy, but it worked. See Last Words: Personal at the bottom of the page.

I may be gone by now. You can’t contact me. But I hope something here inspires you.

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