I had been working on dying happy. I felt that I had fairly cleared away old issues and regrets and the great feeling of loss that comes with death. But there was still turmoil and stress in my life. I knew I wasn’t done.
So I turned my attention toward the future. I thought about what life would be a year from now.
I realized that things would be good. The funeral would long be over and Karen would be going on with her life.
She would have her family and friends, her exercise class and her garden. She might be playing tennis and/or thinking about moving to Virginia. The turmoil and stress of cancer would be gone and life would be smooth again.
I would be only a memory. And whatever distress or turmoil that remained in my life would no longer be important.
Then suddenly, swish. I realized that nothing is important except what I make important. And the remaining stress in my life totally disappeared.
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So this became the missing tool in my toolbox, the final missing whole truth. The “nothing is important” principle interacts with the other three tools. As I mentioned, these four things together transformed my life.
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I did it. I feel totally clean. I can’t find any other issues or problems. The space around me is pure. I am totally ready to find out what happens next (if anything).
Perhaps I have finally become that Buddha I talked about earlier, or perhaps I am just altogether crazy. Nevertheless, if anyone else can learn to use these four tools it could possibly transform their life also.
