A Surprise Truth
To go back
A few months ago I was writing about my mantra, “The truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth," and I acknowledged that “The whole truth" was really the tough part. This morning (10/14/14) it really came through to me.
Here is an example of why the whole truth is so important and how not being aware of it can be such a disaster:
By random selection of my iTunes music a rather significant song (Celine Dion The Power Of Love) started playing on my sound system. The rather well-known lyric was, "I am your lady and you are my man. Whenever you reach for me I'll do all that I can." Suddenly "the whole truth" shouted out in my head.
The truth is that for many years I was excruciatingly frustrated. Many years! My wife was not a late hour person and she would get tired and go to bed and go to sleep around 10 PM. And a great many times over those years I would then pace the house terribly frustrated and wishing I was not a human being. But that is not “the whole truth”.
The whole truth is that, time after time after time, I would wander around the house, or a hotel room, terribly frustrated, in excruciating pain, needing her so badly that I couldn’t stand it. Yet I was so damn stupid that I never reached for her - as suggested in the song.
I could have touched her shoulder and said, "Hey, Sweetheart…" and she would've been there for me - just like in the song. But I just didn't know enough to do that. I didn’t realize it was an option.
(And that is just one of the reasons I have identified myself as mentally deficient.)
After 10 or more years of not seeing it, the accidental playing of a certain song brought out "the whole truth.”
At least now I have made one more step toward Dying Clean. And I have shared how important the whole truth can be.
The Lesson: When a problem persists, always look for the whole truth. It is there but you are not seeing it.